Monday, September 2, 2013

Having a moment....

I’ve been having these long moments of frustration that I’ve tried to ignore. Then I reminded myself that I encourage people to be honest about how they feel. So here is my honest moment. Making the decision to go back to my first love has given me so much more confidence. My vision is clear. I’ve tapped into several avenues not even sure which one will open the most doors, but that doesn’t bother. The competition doesn’t bother me. What does bother me is that I keep wondering how my life would look right now if I had made this decision even just 5 years ago. It’s a complete waste of mental energy to do it, I know (I think I even talked about this in a previous post).  But when you get to a place when you are going forward to complete the goals you want, when you know exactly how you want your life to look, when you know there’s more for you to complete, you tend to look around at your current position and frustration can set in. Now don’t get me wrong, I make it a point to start out my day giving thanks for my life and everyone in it. But give me a break people, I’m human! The weird thing is that in the midst of this frustration, I’m also excited. You may ask, “Tamu, How can you be excited and frustrated at the same time?” and I say to you, “I have no answer for that!” So don’t worry, frustration isn’t my permanent mental state. My excitement will override that.


  1. Anonymous9/02/2013

    Okay, I have to ask! What is the career? I feel as though I'm tuning into a reality show. What is the update on the relationship you posted about two months ago? Tamu, I really think you could have your own show!

    1. I will tell you if you keep reading my blog (and i hope you do :-) you may be able to guess what my next career move is. I will sure love to get paid for putting my business out in the streets! We need to call Ryan Seacrest!

  2. Anonymous9/09/2013

    Maybe you need to turn on the TV and watch a reality show do some of your own soul searching!

  3. Anonymous9/09/2013

    Back to u Tamu...... excitement and frustration yes understand, sometimes these two emotions create some tension however your healthy lifestyle with exercise can help calm things down. A little of both can be a driving force but find your balance. I definitely can relate! These emotions will come and go, but over the process get better. Right now a source of energy for you!