Having a moment....

I’ve been having these long moments of frustration that I’ve tried to ignore. Then I reminded myself that I encourage people to be honest about how they feel. So here is my honest moment. Making the decision to go back to my first love has given me so much more confidence. My vision is clear. I’ve tapped into several avenues not even sure which one will open the most doors, but that doesn’t bother. The competition doesn’t bother me. What does bother me is that I keep wondering how my life would look right now if I had made this decision even just 5 years ago. It’s a complete waste of mental energy to do it, I know (I think I even talked about this in a previous post).  But when you get to a place when you are going forward to complete the goals you want, when you know exactly how you want your life to look, when you know there’s more for you to complete, you tend to look around at your current position and frustration can set in. Now don’t get me wrong, I make it a point to start out my day giving thanks for my life and everyone in it. But give me a break people, I’m human! The weird thing is that in the midst of this frustration, I’m also excited. You may ask, “Tamu, How can you be excited and frustrated at the same time?” and I say to you, “I have no answer for that!” So don’t worry, frustration isn’t my permanent mental state. My excitement will override that.